Thursday, January 17, 2008

2 more weeks.

I don't know how the past year flew by so quickly. I started posting on this blog, pretty much a year ago. My first post was on 1/31 to be exact. It was just days before my 20 week road to ironman would begin.

Here we are again. I seem to be in a similar place. More confident in some ways, and less confident in others.

I know that I can do the training. That I can swim over 6000 yards. that I can bike 112 miles on tired, fatigue legs - then get off the bike and do a brick run. I KNOW that I can finish the IRONMAN.

When I signed up for Ironman CDA, just days after finishing it last year - I thought I could do so much better. My swim is SO much better than I performed. I left the bike with so much energy left. I could have gone harder. Not harder in that I would torture myself... but a little faster and still have fun.

The run on the other hand, I have no huge expectations. My run is not my strongest link. I have had some fast days, but I'm not consistent, and most of all, I am not confident.

Shortly after the race things started to fall apart. I spent months in pain, unable to use my upper body. I found out I have some pretty bad issues with my C spine, issues that can be muted for the time being, but not anything that can be "fixed."

I've done the recommended treatments, yet I still have some pain. I am so thankful for the progress I have seen, yet I am stubborn. I want it all. I want to be able to do as much as everyone else, but I want it to FEEL good. I don't want to come off the bike in tears....

I also ran a marathon. I had a fantastic day. I PR'd, and I got that race I was so badly needing. I felt fulfilled. Then just days later my IT band started bugging me. I have been baby sitting it ever since.

Thankfully(fingers crossed), I have won that battle for now. My running is coming along. No where near where it was this time last year, but I can do it. And, I am not in pain. I am thankful for every single mile I am able to run.

On next Tuesday I am going back to the Dr. for one last Epidural procedure. (if you are interested, click the link - then click on (Cervical Epidural Steroid Injection) I am confident that it will help. It HAS to help. I WANT to do this race, and I want to do it with out all the drama. All the pain....

I want to get back to where I was a year ago. Absolutely loving my training. Loving the endless hours in the pool and the bike that Mark Allen prescribes. I want to feel strong, and confident. I want to feel like I am able.. like everyone else to reach my goals. That my unfortunate physical issues that I was born with will NOT restrict me.

In 2 weeks my training starts. I am mentally ready... I want the sweat, and the soreness and the hard work. I just want it with a reasonable amount of pain. I tolerable amount of pain...

I really don't think it's too much to ask!! So, bear with me.... these next 22 weeks will be an adventure.


momo said...

you'll be back. you know what gets you inflamed, we'll just avoid that stuff going forward - do all the things that make you feel better - and ta-da, cda will be here.

are you READY??? its going to be a fun ride!!

Taryn said...

Oh my goodness Krista - you've had a long road. Wow, those injections! I am really curious about your injury and how it lead to those injections. Do they really help? (I have had issues with my SI joint since college -actually had to take leave for 1.5 quarters b/c it got so bad I couldn't handle the book-carrying & class/study sitting.) Anyway - I've heard about injections, but never looked much into them.

I hope this next patch of road is smooth for you. You've got many exciting months ahead of you!!

Paul said...

It should be a fun 22 weeks!

Erin said...

I'll be cheering for you from Wisconsin as you travel that long road to Ironman. Go get 'em!