Thursday, January 17, 2008

2 more weeks.

I don't know how the past year flew by so quickly. I started posting on this blog, pretty much a year ago. My first post was on 1/31 to be exact. It was just days before my 20 week road to ironman would begin.

Here we are again. I seem to be in a similar place. More confident in some ways, and less confident in others.

I know that I can do the training. That I can swim over 6000 yards. that I can bike 112 miles on tired, fatigue legs - then get off the bike and do a brick run. I KNOW that I can finish the IRONMAN.

When I signed up for Ironman CDA, just days after finishing it last year - I thought I could do so much better. My swim is SO much better than I performed. I left the bike with so much energy left. I could have gone harder. Not harder in that I would torture myself... but a little faster and still have fun.

The run on the other hand, I have no huge expectations. My run is not my strongest link. I have had some fast days, but I'm not consistent, and most of all, I am not confident.

Shortly after the race things started to fall apart. I spent months in pain, unable to use my upper body. I found out I have some pretty bad issues with my C spine, issues that can be muted for the time being, but not anything that can be "fixed."

I've done the recommended treatments, yet I still have some pain. I am so thankful for the progress I have seen, yet I am stubborn. I want it all. I want to be able to do as much as everyone else, but I want it to FEEL good. I don't want to come off the bike in tears....

I also ran a marathon. I had a fantastic day. I PR'd, and I got that race I was so badly needing. I felt fulfilled. Then just days later my IT band started bugging me. I have been baby sitting it ever since.

Thankfully(fingers crossed), I have won that battle for now. My running is coming along. No where near where it was this time last year, but I can do it. And, I am not in pain. I am thankful for every single mile I am able to run.

On next Tuesday I am going back to the Dr. for one last Epidural procedure. (if you are interested, click the link - then click on (Cervical Epidural Steroid Injection) I am confident that it will help. It HAS to help. I WANT to do this race, and I want to do it with out all the drama. All the pain....

I want to get back to where I was a year ago. Absolutely loving my training. Loving the endless hours in the pool and the bike that Mark Allen prescribes. I want to feel strong, and confident. I want to feel like I am able.. like everyone else to reach my goals. That my unfortunate physical issues that I was born with will NOT restrict me.

In 2 weeks my training starts. I am mentally ready... I want the sweat, and the soreness and the hard work. I just want it with a reasonable amount of pain. I tolerable amount of pain...

I really don't think it's too much to ask!! So, bear with me.... these next 22 weeks will be an adventure.

4 comments:

momo said...

you'll be back. you know what gets you inflamed, we'll just avoid that stuff going forward - do all the things that make you feel better - and ta-da, cda will be here.

are you READY??? its going to be a fun ride!!

Taryn said...

Oh my goodness Krista - you've had a long road. Wow, those injections! I am really curious about your injury and how it lead to those injections. Do they really help? (I have had issues with my SI joint since college -actually had to take leave for 1.5 quarters b/c it got so bad I couldn't handle the book-carrying & class/study sitting.) Anyway - I've heard about injections, but never looked much into them.

I hope this next patch of road is smooth for you. You've got many exciting months ahead of you!!

Paul said...

It should be a fun 22 weeks!

Erin said...

I'll be cheering for you from Wisconsin as you travel that long road to Ironman. Go get 'em!