Running Scared
It's been a while since I have done this. I did it for 3 or so years, not including 2 years after surgery. Always wondering how long the leg would last. How would today go? Would I be hurting the rest of the day? Should I be wearing these shoes? I wonder if I need different insoles? I shouldn't run right here, it's slanted? I can't do that race... it has too much downhill... I'd love to do that race, but I don't know if my leg will hold. I don't think I'll ever do a marathon again. Oh... I wish I could just pick up and go run at anytime. I'll never get back to my 8min/mile race pace, when I can't even run 10 mins without pain. I wonder if I will EVER even run again... Well, I finally got rid of all those thoughts. I carried them with me from June 2002, until about April 2007. 5 years those are the thoughts that went thru my head every day. Every time I ran, or even thought about running. I had some brief moments of thinking I'd never