“All things are possible until they are proven impossible.”
― Pearl S. Buck
Over the past month I've done a lot of thinking. With so many life changing things that have happened to me this year, I've spent many nights daydreaming myself to sleep with what ifs. I think about where I was at the beginning of this year, and where I am now.
I think back to where I was in March - I have a great job with all the flexibility one can ask for, and it still pays the bills. I have a family. We drive each other crazy, but they are here. My mom, my dad, my sister, my niece my husband. I have a husband who is a dreamer. We love to sit over cocktails at night and talk about our plans, our goals, our future…
When I think back to then, to March… to those thoughts, so many things have changed. Instead of knowing what tomorrow will bring, I'm faced with uncertainty. I no longer have my mom. I no longer no what to expect at the holidays. In 5 more weeks I no longer have a job. Will the bills be paid? What will I do?
What do I WANT to do?
I've never been much of a live in the moment kind of person. I make a plan, I follow a plan, I almost always know what to expect. But here I find myself with so much uncertainty. So many things I would love to do, but not knowing how or where to start them.
I suppose I should take this time in my life to dream. To make changes and strive to do things I never thought possible, or maybe never dreamed I could do.
“Life is a journey, not a destination.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson
I hope that someday soon I will go to bed not thinking about all the uncertainty. I hope to not think about this past year and all the change.
I know that my future has some exciting and fun adventures. I just wish I had any clue what those were… Until then I will do what I do. Go for a run, sip my martini and hide the fact that all this uncertainty has my scared out of my mind!
Then, I will remind myself that the possibilities are endless...